1. To get into my relationship with Christ more. Make my life more all about the cross, because truly that is why we are here. Because of HIS sacrifice. I have started a ladies bible study on Wednesday nights at church, it is a study on Jonah. Honestly, this is the first Women's study I have ever done, so Im pretty excited about it. I want to get into studying the Word more, Im just so bad about where to start, and finding the things that apply to my life and hold my attention. I am currently working in the nursery once a month at church, but Im contemplating what else God might like for me to do. Maybe lead a small group.....of kids of course, I dont think I can handle the big stuff yet. Im not really sure where this will lead me, but I am open to the idea of anything. I want my kids to see a difference in me, I want them to see the LOVE of Christ through me. And I know that there will be days that I will fail, I will prepare myself for those days on the good days.
2.I want to work on my relationship with my husband. I want Austin to see in me a change, I want to not get so irritated at him over the things that dont really matter in the end. I want to LISTEN to him more. Out of the two of us, I have a hard time listening. Especially if Im busy doing something, its easy to tune out. I dont want to do that, its just habit. I want him to know that I listen and I truly care about what is important enough for him to share with me. I also want to help out better around the house, for those of you who know Austin, you now he tends to be a neat freak. I, on the other hand, like things in order, but a little mess, or something out of place doesnt bother me as much, I will get to it, eventually. :) I want it to matter to me more, so it doesnt frustrate him as much, and so he can relax and rest more. I want to treasure ever moment I get with him without the kids. Because truly, there arent many of those.
3. I want to make more time for my kids. Its HARD. Working 8+ hours a day to come home and ignore everything around me to give them the time they need. I find myself saying "Maybe tomorrow night" way too much. My heart breaks everytime I have to say it though. I want to find easy recipes to do during the week, even if its grilled cheese and soup, so that extra 45 minutes I usually spend cooking can be spent playing a game with Tate, or stacking blocks with Dayton. I need to be better about not being on my phone or computer as much. It reflects in my children. Dayton thinks everything is a phone, and Tate is constantly on his ipod if I let him. I want them to know they are what matters most to me, not facebook, text messages or phone calls. I want them to have pleasant memories of their childhood- not mommy not ever making time for them. I want to snuggle with them more, because my years are slowly slipping away that I will have the chance to do this. I need to watch my temper. Which also reflects in my kids. They react to situations that upset them the same way I react to situations with them. I dont want to yell, or mumble under my breath, or even growl (yes growl) at them. I want to sit down and talk about the problem, and find ways to resolve it, without the anger and frustration.
Overall, I want to be a better person. I want to put up all my selfish goals, and focus on the people who mean most to me. And its not just Austin and my kids, I just feel like that is a good starting point. I want my relationships there to be better so that hopefully the things Im getting better at there can flow out into my other family relationships and friendships.
And, a picture recap...... :)
*Spending more time with Austin*
*Blow more Bubbles*
*Enjoy the kids "silly" moments a little more*
*More trips to the park*
*More Wrestling Sessions*
*Just STOPPING to enjoy the moment*
